I'm out and about quite a lot and that exposes me to people. Many people. Ugh. Well-meaning strangers love to coo at the baby in my Ergo and ask if this is my first. Except for the first time that happened in the hospital, when I said YES, I always answer that Mr. Wiggles is my second. That response is most often followed up with an inquiry about my first. I always say that she died almost two years ago.
... Insert awkwardness here...
I hate to be that person.
But I can't say that Mr. Wiggles is my first, even though some people tried to convince me that he is. People like a neighbour with two kids and a random lady at a grocery store. Those who have all their children alive and well.
You see, I have a daughter. Her name is Amelia. She lives in my heart. She would have been twenty two months old. Today.
I also have a son. His name is Mr. Wiggles. He lives in my arms, most of the time. Sometimes he tolerates an Ergo or a bouncy chair. He is seven weeks old.
This is simple. Both my children I carried to full term, eagerly awaiting their arrival into the world. Both my children I gave birth to. Both my children I love with all my heart. Both my children shape the person I am today. All children are different, so are mine.
New babies always tend to bring those comments. Of course, I still get them, except they ask if my 9yo is my only. She always pipes up and says she isn't. It's heartwarming and breaking. I feel the same way. I have two, a daughter and a son, one here with me, and one tucked in my heart. And I love them both the same.
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