Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

25 Sep 2013

Two Years Six Months.

I'm having a bitter-sweet day today. The weather is beautiful and I have no plans but to hang out with my son. We are all healthy and well.

But my daughter would have turned two and a half, had she lived. I would have been happy, proud, excited. Instead I'm sad, tired, and grieving.

I can't say that I'm surprised by this feeling, but it also feels like it came out of the blue, this grief day.

Grief is hard work. Lately I've been getting lots of breaks in the land of the living-child mommy-hood. It's a nice place. I hate to leave it to visit the land of the bereaved, but I get no choice. If I did, Amelia would be turning two and a half today.

1 comment:

  1. I think of you often and I wish that I could even take a fraction of your pain away and replace it with happiness. The pain that you have had to endure and overcome has been an inspiring thought for me as I have my days where I struggle, I think, "I have the opportunity to struggle" I wish you the best of times this year with your new baby boy and I know that Amelia is in your heart and mind always. I miss you dear friend and hope to catch up one day.