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27 Dec 2012

Sleeping Snoring Baby

It really bothers me when he sleeps.

Not the fact that he is sleeping, but that I can't look at him without seeing Amelia. That's the only time I really see her in him. They look alike and I catch glimpses of her in his eyes, cheeks, lips all the time. But when he sleeps, she is all I see.

The only thing that saves me is his snoring. I never thought I'd be grateful for hearing a man snore...

So all I can do is turn away and listen to his breathing. I just can't look. It breaks my heart over and over again. Seeing the face of my dead baby in my living one's sleep.

I didn't realise how I'll never have a "normal" motherhood until now. Even with a three-week old rainbow I am a mother to a twenty-one-month old angel.

2 comments:

  1. Snoring can be very bad for your babies’ health. You must do something to stop their snoring. You can check them during the night and if they snore then you check them a child specialist care Centre.

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  2. The only thing that saves me is his snoring. I never thought I'd be grateful for hearing a man snore...best snore mouthpiece

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